I may look normal from time to time.. but there's times that it happens. Its not a obvious symptom type. It happens rarely, it depends.
I cant deny that i actually have this mental disorder thing.
I cant control it when it strikes me. I don't even know when or willithappen.. I really hate this anxious attack.. it came whenever i depressed, stressed, overly uncontrollable emotional.
In my whole life, there's only 2 person i know that actually saw me in my worst, panic attack.. 1st my previous boss, and 2nd is him.. he saw me outbreak the most.. the rest and the hardest time, i endure it myself, in toilets.. i remembered that was the hardest time, i cant help but to go to the public toilet and stayed for almost an hour half.. i don't have phone credit, i cant call anybody for help, i cant.. i was in LRT.. Ppl are just staring weirdly, they doesn't know that i was about to faint and struggling myself telling myself to be strong and don't fall, if u fall there's nobody to help u.. keep telling myself and force myself to go to a place that i could just take my time to get myself back.